As one of my New Year's resolutions, I am about to do some emotional clearing. There are many feelings that have been bottled up inside of me and it is time to make peace with my past. I have some deep seated emotional issues that need to be dealt with so that I can be free from them and create a happy and healthy life! I am going to finally let them go and deal with each one individually. Whether I choose to verbally tell the person or not has not been decided. As part of this process, I will be writing letters to those that have hurt me in some way in my past. Writing them out will allow me to verbalize the pain that I have and help to start the healing I so desperately need. It may cause some of the recipients some pain in their lives, so that is why I may choose not to share the letters with them! Some of these people may not even be an active part of my life anymore and I have no way of knowing how to tell them that they have hurt me or I may have been the one who hurt someone else.
I am in no way innocent from causing pain in others lives and need to forgive myself as well. One of the letters will be to myself. There are a lot of feelings that have been buried for many years and have recently started to surface in my own life. As I share some of my life stories with my children, I am reminded of God's never ending forgiveness! Now if only I can find it in my heart to forgive others as well as myself! Harboring bad feelings toward others has not allowed me to grow in areas of my life where I need to be growing. I will not be going through this process alone and will be sharing this with my counselor who has helped me over some major milestones! She has truly been amazing and I can't thank her enough for helping me to move past the issues in my life that have surfaced! I choose today to be free from the pain of my past and to deal with it one step at a time.
In dealing with this, I am buying myself the Feelings Kit to help me work through this!
Have you set your New Year's resolutions yet?
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